Progress! Of sorts
So following on from the last blog which was frankly a pity fest, there has been changes afoot. I started taking Disulfiram, which is actually one of the most difficult things to do; not because its a big fuck off tablet; its not, but because with that medication in my system, there is nooooo way I'll be able to have any kind of "blip". And blips can be used as an excuse to drink. And I always looked for an excuse to drink.To me, "blip" is a red flag. So really, it's forced my hand into accepting abstinence BUT here is the weird part, I'm so glad it has done. Psychologically I have found abstinece easier since I've been on the meds, and the Naltrexone ensures I rarely crave a drink. In fact, I had my first birthday in over 30 years when I haven't had a drink. I was pleased because it didn't bother me at all. I bought some alcohol free wine and some absolutely minging alcohol free "spiced rum" 😞 with the thought that I'd wan...