Giving up alcohol.(it's worth a shot)

I pressed the fuckit button on Tuesday night.  It's been a long time coming. No point focusing on what caused the fuckit button to be deployed. It's in the past. Whole heap of excuses if I wanted to give them out but every single one of them comes down to me picking that bottle up. Sure, triggers are there, but its my choice to make bad choices. The thing is,to talk about what enabling the fuckit button actually  achieved. Well ,it reminded me that for me, alcoholism is a learned behaviour.  I sat in the same spot on the couch in the same position with legs tucked under me, bottle at the side of the couch. In easy reach. Old behaviours  It wasn't even a nice evening. I was still lonely,upset, tired but with added bonus of being wankered! I could have reached out to my SMART friends. But there was no chance I'd ring them and chat with a glass in my hand. I love and respect them x But the thing about realpse prevention is do not focus on the negative One should not fee...

 It's been  while since I updated my Blog. In truth I was going to end it, seeing as I'd finished with the alcohol team and achieved sobriety.   Then I realised I needed to actually KEEP updating, due to being the maintenance zone of sobriety and that the support gained from the blogs is as imperative as it ever was if not more,  So I'm going to keep on keeping on.  I'm going to talk about Africa.  Firstly I was really annoyed Toto forgot to bless those there rains.  Secondly F U LOADSHEDDING!!! 👎 So down to the nitty gritty:  When I made the decision to take Disulfiram(Antabuse) before I went away to Africa, I went through a range of emotions and thoughts, highlighted below: 1: You don't need to take them  2:Have faith in yourself! 3: Take them 4:You're going to get pissed 5:nobody needs to know 6:nobody needs to know 7:nobody needs to know  And the fact that the recurring thought that I had was that "Nobody would ever know "if I ...