Demotion!

 I've been demoted, friends!

My recovery has been downgraded to what they call Tier 2. This means because I've been doing so well in recovery, relapse prevention and abstinence, I don't need the same intense level of support. I'm therefore demoted! 🤣

So what I'll have is less regular inteventions such as phone calls and check ups. My recovery worker will be replaced by a case manager.  I can still have access to groups should I need to. And if I struggle, the lifeline will be there, so the umbilical cord isn't quite severed yet.  

My outgoing recovery worker said I was a textbook case of recovery and abstinence from the bottle.  

So that's good! 

As an update, I've been working nights,  and prior to therapy, I'd not worked nights and not had half a bottle of Brandy "to help me to sleep". Which was utter bastard bollocks to be honest because I used to stay up later to drink the Brandy so that it would put me to sleep. 😣

But now, sober Shaz is getting home, putting jimjams on,brew, piss about on Facebook and then bed for 9am.

Sleep is much better and deeper now.  That's another tick to the list of positives of abstinence. ✌

Generally, the issue I had in the last blog hasn't gone away. And my brain is still foggy.  I've struggled a bit with nights, often distracted, seldom less than fabulous though 😘😉 


70 days sober.  

And coping okay 👌

Comments

  1. Dylnjan9 December 2021 at 01:48

    That's a proper bad news / good news post, who would have thought that demotion meant success! Well done Shaz, you're doing an amazing job , Janet x

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    1. Abstinent Shaz9 December 2021 at 08:57

      Aw thanks so much. It's a work in progress 😃xxx

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  2. Emily W9 December 2021 at 09:38

    Woohoo! 70 days! Congratulations on your demotion. I'm so inspired by you with your determination, persistence, and commitment.

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