Father Dougal's Brain




So this is currently the latest episode in Shazland. My cognition and part of my executive functioning seems quite fuzzy and has been for some time. My psychologist said it can be quite common in the first 12 months to 2 years of abstinence as the brain rewires itself into something its not been before: sober.  

It's a weird experience and it has very much affected my Uni work. 

My style of learning has always been verbal; I could soak up text and information and assimilate it quite well, and get it written down in some kind of order. 

However not now. 

Nooooo its a word salad now. Nowt makes sense. I go off on tangents and then come back to the original point, then bugger off on another tangent again. 

Some of my thinking is a little bit of as well. For example, I bought a ninja oven as my Air fryer was on its last legs. Have I used the Ninja oven? No, its still in its box in the living room and I step over it every time I go into the kitchen and that's just stupid and I know it's stupid but I'm just not inclined to pick it up even though I know I need to pick it up. I keep banging my toe on it and calling it a bastard but I still step over it. 

My actifry is still on its last legs but I still use it despite having a brand new oven. 

In the living room

On the floor

In its box. 

🙈


Anyway, I've taken a deferral on my dissertation. My tutor said the student advisors should have advised this way before now, rather than the few weeks extra I've had. 

I'm hoping I'm a bit more wired right by then! I'm not wanting to fail the course coz my brain decides to be all chuffin dramatic because its not having any grog! 

Also I'm going to start back on the Vitamin B strong tablets, in case its a deficiency as well.

Also, also I'm doing well with the not drinking. I've not replaced drink with any other substance, and the alcohol free stuff is merely something that's in my fridge if I want a refreshing drink. 


And that's about it up to now. 


Comments

  1. Unknown11 April 2022 at 02:30

    Aw sweetheart. You're doing brilliantly! One day at a time. We're all here for you. One day I will ask for your autograph as an author and be proud to exclaim "I know her!". Love and healing hugs ❤❤

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